Story by "Debbie"

 

I just read J's story and could not believe the similarities I am currently going through.  I am currently under a neurologists care. I too smoked pot one evening and have not been the same since.   I never told anyone I smoked pot.  When it happened I figured I figured I was having an anxiety attack while being high.  But I have not been the same for 6 weeks. I went to the doctor and told them I was feeling "detached" along with my physical symptoms I have been having. They gave me a MRI, Spinal Tap and EEG.  They checked me for multiple sclerosis, Lyme disease ,etc. My spinal tab and EEG came back fine. But the MRI came back showing some white matter.  I have been going crazy every since.  Since I learned of white matter on the brain I have discovered that can be from from many other diseases.  I am having a lot of flu like symptoms, migraine headaches and terrible memory loss, confusion and speech  hesitation. Some of the brain disorders have these symptoms too. I have been hoping that I have a "medical illness" but after reading J's story I think it could be the depersonalization disorder.   I am at a point now where my neurologists says he can not find anything wrong with me and my regular doctor thinks I have disassociative disorder and had put me on Zyprexa.   I am angry that she thinks that!! I don't want to have a mental disorder.  I seeking a second opinion.  Maybe I am wasting my time. My parents have been extremely supportive of my current situation.  If this is from pot, they would be devastated and I will feel like I have ruined my life.  If anyone wants to talk with me I would really like it and need it.  "D"

 


 

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