Story by "Sabrina"
I've read everyone's story and can honestly say, it
seems as though
single one of us have quite a few things in common. This DP seems to
affect us all the same, for similar reasons, and with similar
On top of that, we're all on the same medications! ha ha I find this
extremely interesting. Well, here's my story:
"I feel as if I'm the only person alive and everything else is like watching a lot of TV sets all around me. I feel as if I'm God or something and the rest of this is just my imagination"
That was the best explanation an 11 year old could come up with at the time. Here I am 31 and have a better understanding of what I feel and maybe even WHY I am feeling this. First let me say that yes, I am on multiple meds for multiple reasons. Celexa, Klonopin, Neurontin, Inderal, Lorcet, and occasionally other pain killers. I've been diagnosed with Mild Depression, Anxiety/Panic Disorder, Migraine/tension headaches, and now DP. My feelings of DP are similar to most others here that have submitted their thoughts, though I believe mine may be slightly different in that I don't feel 'detached' from myself per se as much as from the rest of everything else. Mostly it's a feeling as if I am God, and no one else on earth realizes it except me. Then the feeling continues to the point where I tell myself, if I'm a god-like figure, then I am able to decide whether or not I leave this particular lifetime or not. But I end up arguing with myself if this feeling is 'true' or not, or if I commit suicide if I will end up suffering more than I am now.
I lead a productive life for the most part, I'm a mother of 3, have a career, husband I adore, pets, home, family. I have an IQ of 146 and consider myself a Spiritualist. The only problem is that these stupid, mental inconveniences that my brain insists on holding onto interfere with my life so much that I require the common medications that most of you here are on. I think I've come to this conclusion, and this is mostly in part to reading a trilogy of books called Conversation with God:
I believe that the 'reality' is in the spiritual world, not here in the
physical. That as natural beings, we are ONE, together, as a whole.
feeling of being detached from our bodies is a state of another
consciousness where we 'remember' who we really are. Some of us are
to forget this and lead a 'normal' life here on earth, but there are
of us that KNOW there is something else and this isn't reality. And
those of us that know this, they labeled us with DP.
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