Story by Jonathan

 

Hello, I'm Jonathan, 20 years old, and I live in Massachusetts. I've read some of these stories and noticed that a lot of people get DP from drug usage or a traumatic experience. I firmly believe I've had mine since birth, or at least- as far back as I can remember. My father has DP, my sister has DP, and I have DP. I'm willing to bet my children will as well. How DP has affected me, I do not know. I have coped with this alteration of perception along time ago, I thought it was normal. But as I grow older, it's getting worse and it's bothering me. I use to love the feeling believe it or not, of being separated. Now it's becoming scary. Those questions plague my mind and even cause me to have panic attacks; "Am I even alive?" "Is this all some elaborate dream?".
 
   I've tried to tell my girlfriend about it, but everytime I do, she thinks I'm crazy. My other friends don't believe me or think I'm nuts and crack jokes about. I even tell psychiatrist about it and *they* have never heard of it. So I keep it to myself now and it's almost depressing. But at least it makes me unique. Other then being scared of DP, I really can't complain about it. I don't know life without it. I can't even comprehend what everyone else "sees". So this is my life and I live with it. Like someone else mentioned, DP can help you excel in some skills. Like photography or even acting, which is a career I'm pursuing. Wynona Ryder has DP, did anyone know that? The only real thing that bothers me though, is the panic attacks I get from it, and even thinking about those questions I've mentioned above, scares me. I wonder if anyone else gets panic attacks because of DP. But of course, none of those questions can be answered so why kill ourselves with it. Theres no point. Any comments about my story, email me at jonathan.beauregard@gmail.com.
 
 
 


 

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