Story by Keri

 

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Hi my name is Keri, I have had DP for about 8 years now.  I was so happy when I found this website.  I have searched for years about this disorder and I could not find anything about it.  It really helps to know that you are not alone.  I have read just about every story and could relate to alot of the symptoms that everybody has.  I firmly believe that smoking weed can trigger DP.  The reason why I think this is because after the first time I tried weed I was not the same.  I also think that being abused as a child could make you more prone to it.  When I had my first episode I thought I was going crazy.  It felt like I was not fully awake. I ended up getting really depressed because I would lay in bed hoping that I would wake up normal again but I never did.  I think what drove me to get help was my children.  They were just babies at the time but I felt that I was missing out on all there infant and toddler stages because I was so preoccupied with my self.  I finally got help and did a little better with medication.  It did not help my DP but it did help with my mood.  It has been 8 years now and I am weaning off my medication to see how I will do.  So far it has been ok.  My DP is no worse or no better.  I hope that some day they will find a cure but, until then I will keep on plugging.
 
 I want to give a message of encouragement and say that I know how hard it is to cope with this disorder especially when no body can understand what you are going through but, just know that your ability to cope with it will improve over time.  I also believe that accepting you have this disorder will help as well. I know from experience that you can live a happy life.  I have two kids and am currently in college.  It is tough some days but I try to think positively and say to my self that it could be worse.  If anybody wants to talk you can email me at sweet25lips@yahoo.com.  I think it helps when you can relate to somebody since  DP is hardly spoken of.  Well everybody take care and hang in there.       




 


 

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