Story by "Wendi"
I was reading some information on WebMD about Lexapro--which I am currently taking and decreasing the dosage. I found a link to the word "depersonalization" and I am amazed!
That is the feeling the I had when I was a kid. I would feel as if, all of the sudden, I was outside of myself. I felt like I was dreaming. When I spoke, it wasn't me talking.
These episodes usually came on when I was being overactive--playing with friends, in a group of people. And, I remember these episodes happening when it was getting toward night time.
One instance, in particular, took place when I was under the age of 10 and I was playing outside with a group of friends. I was with my family at a cookout.
I started feeling this way and I went up to my mom and said "I don't feel right." "I feel like I'm not really here."
She made me sit down and told me that I was "dizzy."
I will never forget the way that I felt that night. I've felt like that often in the past few years.
Sometimes I will just drop out of a conversation and take it all in as if I'm not really there.
The most amazing thing about his phenomenon is that, at times, I cannot remember if I dreamed something or if it really happened. Little things like conversations, instances, jokes--I will think that I really said something but I only said it in my dream!
I've always been a highly imaginative kid. I lived in a partial dream land--still do. I'm happier there, it seems.
I've also always wondered what this "feeling" was called--I'm glad that it has a name.
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