Michelle

The first time I suffered from DP was four months following the birth of my first child.  It was a horrible experience.  I thought I was losing my mind.  I even considered suicide.  After confiding in my mother I was sent to a psychologist.  The psychologist later sent me to a psychiatrist.  The psychiatrist diagnosed Postpartum Depression.  She told me I was suffering from depression, anxiety, and panic attacks.  She also told me I was experiencing Depersonalization as a result of the constant anxiety and panic attacks.  She and I went through a string of medications.  About 2 years following my first meeting with her, she found the medication that would heal me.  She prescribed a combination of 2 drugs: Paxil and Valium to be taken everyday for 1 year.  I have been free of the depersonalization for 4 years and I thank God everyday.  It was one of the worst experiences of my life but it was a forum, like this one, that saved my life.  6 years ago I found a forum like this one and hearing other peoples’ stories and knowing I wasn’t alone and having people who could understand me literally saved my life.  I would have never got through it all if it hadn’t been for that.

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