I am 20 years old starting my third year of college, and have been dealing with what I'm positive is depersonalization disorder for about 6 months  I have not yet confirmed this, but after visiting this website just last night, something finally clicked. I have seen a few doctors who have tested my thyroid gland, and I have switched my method of birth control twice. After …
This is blowing my mind. I cant believe there are other people out there that feel "not here" as well. I like to call it being on "auto-pilot" not that I can't control what I'm doing, its like my soul has more important matters to deal with than everyday things. Often times I will be driving, know where I'm going, get there then wonder how in …
My earliest memories of DP start when I was about six or seven. That period in my childhood was somewhat difficult for me. My parents had just concluded their divorce and my mother was in the process of getting remarried to a man I had not yet even met. She had moved to an island in the Pacific to be with this man while I …
I am currently under a neurologists care. I too smoked pot one evening and have not been the same since.   I never told anyone I smoked pot.  When it happened I figured I figured I was having an anxiety attack while being high.  But I have not been the same for 6 weeks. I went to the doctor and told them I was feeling "detached" …
Hi my name is Christian and I have been suffering from DPD since 1991 when I was sixteen I was diagnosed with Non Hodgkin's Lymphoma and underwent 6 months of Chemotherapy.  About a week after the first treatment I woke in the morning and I felt like I was having an out of body experience.  After about the third treatment I felt spaced out and distant …
I have had DP for most (if not all) of my life. I can say for certain that I have had it since about the age of 11 but probably had symptoms prior to that age. I am now a month shy of 33. At the age of 13-14 I remember trying to explain to a friend how I felt. I made a little drawing …
 I have been struggling to deal with this for the last 3 and a half months. I am not sure if it is exactly the same as I have some certain physical symptoms such as balance, poor vision, numbness around the head, but the overwhelming feeling is a real sense that I have lost my soul. I am 34 and not a regular E user, perhaps …
First let me start by telling you a little about myself. I'm a 23 year old, male to female transsexual, computer programmer. I've been fighting with myself most of my life for many reasons. I've had panic attacks for most, if not all, of my life. I'm not sure when, or for that matter if, my problems with DP started.I always have felt different and …
I have suffered from DP all of my life. When I was a child I would just space out and see all of these lights and colors. I never liked being around other children because they seemed far too connected to their physical form and physical movements than I was. I enjoyed sitting by myself in my room perfectly still for hours. I …
So it DOES have a name!  This site told me two words that three therapists, one nurse practitioner, and SIX psychiatrists couldn't - Depersonalization Disorder!  Throughout the years, I've been on nine different meds (each one by itself, and then in combinations), and have been diagnosed with seven different disorders (none of which ever seemed right).  Nothing ever helped, except the occasional glass of wine.  (Okay, the whole bottle.)  I am …
I am 20 years old starting my third year of college, and have been dealing with what I'm positive is depersonalization disorder for about 6 months  I have not yet confirmed this, but after visiting this website just last night, something finally clicked. I have seen a few doctors who have tested my thyroid gland, and I have switched my method of birth control twice. After …
I walk feeling alone in the world. Everyone is here but at the same time they're not. I feel empty. Is anything what it appears? Am I the only one here? Am I the only on that sees? Where is everyone's eyes? Why don't they see what I see? Did they close their eyes to the place I see and feel? I feel completely hollow. I feel as unreal …

Share your story