I am glad to have someone to share my experience with. I am 60 yrs old and just found out I've have de-personalization since 3 yrs old or earlier. It was always after I went to bed and I would look at my hands and know they were mine, but where was the "me" inside of me. Terror would strike. I've never been dissociated , …
Hi, I had my first depersonalization experience when I was 12 3/4 years old. I'm ashamed and sorrowed to admit that it occurred just two weeks after the first time I smoked marijuana. The DP event was so incredibly traumatic and life altering. I look back now over the years (I'm 37 now), and can see how my life was altered forever from that first DP …
I am so glad that I found this site. I had been reading some of the experiences and some of them are carbon copy descriptions of what I have been living with.I remember my first experience as a child. I was about 10 or 11, I was sitting up in my bunk bed looking towards my encyclopedias when all of a sudden this feeling comes …
This is blowing my mind. I cant believe there are other people out there that feel "not here" as well. I like to call it being on "auto-pilot" not that I can't control what I'm doing, its like my soul has more important matters to deal with than everyday things. Often times I will be driving, know where I'm going, get there then wonder how in …
My saga begins on a street corner in a fairly large city with " my buddy" Jeff stating the question to me, "I thought you were gonna do all three" in regards to some random pharmaceutical amphetamine tablets, "uppers" as they were called, most likely doled out to weight obsessed housewives back in the late spring of 1969. I was pretty high on two already, …
I'd smoked pot since I was about 16.
I had resisted for a long time, being a total control freak even at that age,
but once I tried it I just had too much fun. For a number of years I had
no problems. I simply enjoyed myself and suffered the typical paranoia of
being regularly stoned. At the age of 20 I broke down another resistance
and decided to …
From the start of my life until 1997, I would describe myself as having, for want of a better word, a ‘normal’ state of mind. I experienced ups and downs, had likes and dislikes, and felt entitled to my hopes and expectations. I was happy enough in my day to day life and was looking forward to the future.
The thing which I used to love about life …
I was the sixth child. My brother was born 18 years earlier and two boys and two girls died in infancy before I was born. My mother did not want another child because she could not bear another loss. Nonetheless I was conceived and in spite of her efforts to abort, was born healthy. She hovered over me. In fact one psychiatrist said it was smother …
I am glad to have someone to share my experience with. I am 60 yrs old and just found out I've have de-personalization since 3 yrs old or earlier. It was always after I went to bed and I would look at my hands and know they were mine, but where was the "me" inside of me. Terror would strike. I've never been dissociated , …
I am twenty-five and have been dealing, or attempting to deal with depersonalization for twenty years. I do not recall any of my time here on earth before age of four, so that time is irrelevant to me. I grew up in a dysfunctional environment, so it is my guess that depersonalization on my behalf may have risen from this period of my life. I …
I am so thankful that I finally
found out what is wrong with me...DID, dissociative disorder...which, by the way,
is not rare. It is now believed that as high as 10% of the general population
has some level of DID (of which depersonalization is a part)....
Thank you to all of you who are
posting your stories on this website. It is very helpful to me to learn what
your …
Hi I just recently found this website and to say the least I am fascinated.
I have spent the greater portion of the last 2 years of my life, examining, reading, studying, analyzing, and gathering information as to why I feel the way I do or don't in the case. It has given me tremendous relieve to read this web page. Although extraordinarily scary at first, …