I’m so happy to have found this website…to know I’m not alone dealing with this. Although I have never been diagnosed with DP, I know I have it. Ihave had this feeling since I was 11 and now I am 16. I have felt it persistently although I have learned to adjust as best as […]
I have just developed depersonalization disorder. I am 17 years old and I am scared to death. The first time I felt this sensation was a few days ago, about a week after getting high for the first time. I am constantly nervous, anxious, and my heart races. I feel disconnected from the world, like […]
The fan blowing on my feet is the only comfort I can feel at this moment. The flannel sheets are soft on my skin, my pillow is tucked under me in just the right places, but I still can’t feel completely at ease.I can stare at the closet door all night long wondering why I […]
My name is Ilijas, and in all honesty, it makes me physically ill to think about what I’m experiencing. This is my third major episode, and I feel like I’m burning and dying from the anxiety that this dissociative experience brings. I’ll try to keep it short: my first episode was when I was 16. I […]
So it DOES have a name! This site told me two words that three therapists, one nurse practitioner, and SIX psychiatrists couldn’t – Depersonalization Disorder! Throughout the years, I’ve been on nine different meds (each one by itself, and then in combinations), and have been diagnosed with seven different disorders (none of which ever seemed right). Nothing ever helped, except the […]
My name is Johan and I have had the symptoms of DP for 20 years. First I’d like to apologize for making abuse on the English language since English is not my native tongue, (Swedish is). I recall the first time I felt strange, it was when our class was in an amusement park, my […]
I’d smoked pot since I was about 16. I had resisted for a long time, being a total control freak even at that age, but once I tried it I just had too much fun. For a number of years I had no problems. I simply enjoyed myself and suffered the typical paranoia of being […]
I am writing a book about my thoughts and feelings, and I wanted to share them here. Feel free to email me back with any thoughts. I don’t know what I have, but I definitely have a lot of symptoms of depersonalization. The story by Melissa inspired me to share my story here. I would […]
My earliest memories of DP start when I was about six or seven. That period in my childhood was somewhat difficult for me. My parents had just concluded their divorce and my mother was in the process of getting remarried to a man I had not yet even met. She had moved to an island […]
I’ve visited this site so many times – read and reread the stories hoping to find my life story – to find some sort of explanation for my own feelings and thoughts. I find comfort in knowing that I am not alone in these feelings yet cannot get seem to get past the fact that […]
Although I now feel almost completely normal again, I believe that I recently had a depersonalization episode that lasted for about a month. Being in that condition was more or less the most difficult part of my life so my heart goes out to anyone that suffers from depersonalization on a daily basis. It seems […]
I am 25 years old, and have suffered anxiety, panic attacks, depression and DP since I was about 15 years old. My panic attacks started when I was 15, after an experience with pot.After smoking with a friend, I began to “freak out”. I had never felt like this before. I felt as if I […]