Where to begin my story of DP which has spanned roughly 35 yrs. I’m 42 and I believe my first episode occurred when I was pre-teen. I remember it vividly.  Sitting around with my family playing SORRY in what I recall as a very ordinary night. Suddenly a wave of “unrealness” swept over me and […]
Hi, I had my first depersonalization experience when I was 12 3/4 years old.  I’m ashamed and sorrowed to admit that it occurred just two weeks after  the first time I smoked marijuana.  The DP event was so incredibly traumatic and life altering.  I look back now over the years (I’m 37 now), and can see […]
Wow. Just found this site, and like most of the posts here I am amazed how well it describes what I have been feeling – in my case, since I was twelve. Now I’m 26 and have always just assumed that I felt ‘existential angst’ a bit more strongly than other people. So many of […]
When I was 13 I smoked pot for the first time. I felt completely nothing, maybe I just imagined that I felt something so I could impress my friends who had already been high numerous times. After trying to get high again and failing, I decided that me and two other friends would keep smoking […]
My first experience with DP occurred when I was 15. I had been away from home on holiday with my twin brother and friend; the first time I had spent time away from home, and on returning felt that everything looked different in some way, that familiar places I had passed very day on the […]
I haven’t had any episodes or feeling of DP for a very, very long time! Later in my letter I’ll explain how and why I found this site. (How would one who’s not having symptoms end up here?) Some think it’s important to note that I had a very harsh childhood. I have yet to […]
Tonight while I was at dinner with my mother I decided to talk about this. I have had this feeling for about a year now.  I just started noticing it, but me and my mom have talked about it before and she told me what it was called and sent me this site. I got […]
When I first found this site, I did not know whether I wanted to view or contribute to it because each of your stories causes me to start panicking a little. But I suppose I find solace in that fact that I am not alone, and if I can provide that for someone else, then […]
Hello all. I amazed by this website. I have thought for the last 27 years that I was alone with this experience. I must say that after reading, I had/have more of a derealization thing than depersonalization [ There seems to be some cross over]  It started for me from a pot smoking session when […]
For years I have attempted to recount my experience with depersonalization as a full-time condition.  And every time I’ve tried, I’ve stopped, for the simple reason that I first knew this illness nearly 30 years ago, and to relay everything I’ve experienced, felt and learned in that time would literally take hundreds of pages.  But […]
My DP first began about 10 years ago, when I was 14. I have never used an illicit substance – no pot, LSD, Speed, etc. Not even a sniff. So the onset of my symptoms still remains a bit of a mystery…..I remember the first time I has a DP experience. It was like having an overwhelming sense […]
Hi my name is Keri, I have had DP for about 8 years now.  I was so happy when I found this website.  I have searched for years about this disorder and I could not find anything about it.  It really helps to know that you are not alone.  I have read just about every […]

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