In all honesty, it makes me physically ill to think about what I'm experiencing. This is my third major episode, and I feel like I'm burning and dying from the anxiety that this dissociative experience brings. I'll try to keep it short: my first episode was when I was 16. I remember it coming on very suddenly - one afternoon in the middle of winter when …
I have just developed depersonalization disorder.  I am 17 years old and I am scared to death. The first time I felt this sensation was a few days ago, about a week after getting high for the first time.  I am constantly nervous, anxious, and my heart races.  I feel disconnected from the world, like nobody is real to me.  I try to get solace …
I was diagnosed with Depersonalization Disorder when I was 15. I first started getting the episodes when I was 10, and they scared me but I didn't tell anyone about them basically because I thought everyone must have these sorts of things happen to them. I mean, I thought that it's impossible to everyone to be in touch with reality all the time.Time passed and …
 I have been struggling to deal with this for the last 3 and a half months. I am not sure if it is exactly the same as I have some certain physical symptoms such as balance, poor vision, numbness around the head, but the overwhelming feeling is a real sense that I have lost my soul. I am 34 and not a regular E user, perhaps …
After reading these stories I feel that I really need to post also so that I may also help. Personally I've never received an official diagnosis of Depersonalization. I'm currently 31. For me it starts as early as I can remember. The first real depersonalization thing that ever happened to me was an out of body experience when I was about 5. I was sitting watching …
Story by "Maya" My name is Maya and I'm 16. I've never done drugs majorly, I've tried pot like at most 10 times, and I've never had a traumatic experience besides this 'new business'. About 5 weeks ago I had a panic attack. It was late and I got ready for bed like usual, but when I went to lie down I was suddenly overwhelmed with thoughts. …
I am twenty-five and have been dealing, or attempting to deal with depersonalization for twenty years. I do not recall any of my time here on earth before age of four, so that time is irrelevant to me. I grew up in a dysfunctional environment, so it is my guess that depersonalization on my behalf may have risen from this period of my life. I …
I am 20 years old starting my third year of college, and have been dealing with what I'm positive is depersonalization disorder for about 6 months  I have not yet confirmed this, but after visiting this website just last night, something finally clicked. I have seen a few doctors who have tested my thyroid gland, and I have switched my method of birth control twice. After …
From the start of my life until 1997, I would describe myself as having, for want of a better word, a ‘normal’ state of mind.  I experienced ups and downs, had likes and dislikes, and felt entitled to my hopes and expectations.  I was happy enough in my day to day life and was looking forward to the future. The thing which I used to love about life …
I was diagnosed with Depersonalization Disorder when I was 15. I first started getting the episodes when I was 10, and they scared me but I didn't tell anyone about them basically because I thought everyone must have these sorts of things happen to them. I mean, I thought that it's impossible to everyone to be in touch with reality all the time.Time passed and …
Story by "Maya" My name is Maya and I'm 16. I've never done drugs majorly, I've tried pot like at most 10 times, and I've never had a traumatic experience besides this 'new business'. About 5 weeks ago I had a panic attack. It was late and I got ready for bed like usual, but when I went to lie down I was suddenly overwhelmed with thoughts. …
I just found this website the other day when I was looking up information panic anxiety disorder.My life as a child was pretty normal. I went to high school, graduated etc. The summer of my graduation I got in a huge car wreck. I was on ecstasy and was very drunk. I flew out of the sunroof and the car landed on my legs and …

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