I am so glad that I found this site. I had been reading some of the experiences and some of them are carbon copy descriptions of what I have been living with. I remember my first experience as a child. I was about 10 or 11, I was sitting up in my bunk bed looking […]
A few weeks ago, I was trying to explain to a friend how I’d been feeling for the past few years, day in and day out. The conversation went like this: “I feel like I’m not alive, like I’m watching life through someone else’ set of eyes, life a first person computer game. I consciencessly know […]
I believe my true episodes of depersonalization/derealization disorder started when I was about 13. I know that even before that age I had had feelings that “I wasn’t really there” in fact I used to tell my family that all the time and they thought I was just overreacting. Anyway, when I was 12 my […]
As with so many of you I can’t believe there’s actually anyone else who feels the things I do and that these feelings have a name —Depersonalization Disorder I first heard about it last night while I was researching Paxil on the net. I read the word depersonalization and a short definition and had to […]
This is brilliant! All these people outside looking in, I’m gushing over. I’m 22, I do take a lot of drugs (I make no excuses). I didn’t realize there was a name for this feeling until I found this site. To be perfectly honest I’ve been walking around in a kind of stunned haze these […]
I am twenty-five and have been dealing, or attempting to deal with depersonalization for twenty years. I do not recall any of my time here on earth before age of four, so that time is irrelevant to me. I grew up in a dysfunctional environment, so it is my guess that depersonalization on my behalf […]
I haven’t had any episodes or feeling of DP for a very, very long time! Later in my letter I’ll explain how and why I found this site. (How would one who’s not having symptoms end up here?) Some think it’s important to note that I had a very harsh childhood. I have yet to […]
Hi… I’m Gabby. I am 16 and I have DP… On June 1st, 2001 I was hit by a car. My whole entire elementary school saw the whole thing from beyond the backyard gates during recess as I walked back from getting pizza with my then best friend Jovon. I was only 11 years old. Now at […]
First of all I’m sorry for my English won’t be as good as I wanted to be. My personal story started in Spain (where I am) 28 years ago in 1975 when I was ten years old. I was in classroom, sitting on my chair, in a clear and shinny morning of September and suddenly […]
I found this site many months ago at a point of great desperation. I am glad to add my story to those many others that have helped me to understand that I’m not the only one, and that I am not going crazy. I am a 20 year-old female and I have determined that I […]
Depersonalization started for me when I was about 12. I had been smoking weed with my friend Jes for about 3yrs, and the first time I experienced DP we were sitting in her back yard on a picnic table smoking out of a home made can pipe. My friend dropped the weed, as I went […]
My earliest memories of DP start when I was about six or seven. That period in my childhood was somewhat difficult for me. My parents had just concluded their divorce and my mother was in the process of getting remarried to a man I had not yet even met. She had moved to an island […]