My saga begins on a street corner in a fairly large city with " my buddy" Jeff stating the question to me, "I thought you were gonna do all three" in regards to some random pharmaceutical amphetamine tablets, "uppers" as they were called, most likely doled out to weight obsessed housewives back in the late spring of 1969. I was pretty high on  two already, …
My earliest memories of DP start when I was about six or seven. That period in my childhood was somewhat difficult for me. My parents had just concluded their divorce and my mother was in the process of getting remarried to a man I had not yet even met. She had moved to an island in the Pacific to be with this man while I …
Self No-Self  Depersonalization?  What's that?  I'm now 40 and have been in the helping profession since my early 20's.  I've read every diagnostic code there is and just now came to realize that depersonalization has always been the underlying issue in my life.  I cannot remember a time in my life where this diagnosis did not apply.  I don't have a first episode to point to.  …
Where to begin my story of DP which has spanned roughly 35 yrs. I'm 42 and I believe my first episode occurred when I was pre-teen. I remember it vividly.  Sitting around with my family playing SORRY in what I recall as a very ordinary night. Suddenly a wave of "unrealness" swept over me and I recall leaving the game in a panic.  At that …
I am a 51 year old woman, and have never spoken to a doctor about my episodes of unreality. They have, thank God, lessened greatly over the years, and have never become chronic. I remember as a child of about 5 being in the garden and suddenly thinking I had just been born.  I couldn't remember the person I had been before that time (although I …
So it DOES have a name!  This site told me two words that three therapists, one nurse practitioner, and SIX psychiatrists couldn't - Depersonalization Disorder!  Throughout the years, I've been on nine different meds (each one by itself, and then in combinations), and have been diagnosed with seven different disorders (none of which ever seemed right).  Nothing ever helped, except the occasional glass of wine.  (Okay, the whole bottle.)  I am …
Hi, my name is Alex, I’m 28 and this is my experience with DP. About 18 months ago while at work something changed inside my brain. It was instantaneous, I looked around and everything seemed different, like nothing was real, like I was in a dream or a movie or under the influence of drugs, an unbelievably hot rush of fear swept through my body …
I walk feeling alone in the world. Everyone is here but at the same time they're not. I feel empty. Is anything what it appears? Am I the only one here? Am I the only on that sees? Where is everyone's eyes? Why don't they see what I see? Did they close their eyes to the place I see and feel? I feel completely hollow. I feel as unreal …
When I was born nearly 48 years ago I suffered from a birth defect known as Congenital Diaphragmatic Hernia (CDH). Due to a malformed diaphragm my stomach and intestines went up into my chest cavity and displaced my heart and lungs to the left hand side. I was a dark blue when I was delivered because I couldn’t breathe and I had to be resuscitated.  24 …
If I can stop the tears I'll be able to get through this! I was unaware of the condition DP until my midwife referred me to a psychiatrist thinking I was suffering from ante-natal depression. I sat in her office answering a string of questions, that for the first time in my life I answered truthfully. She seemed almost overjoyed at her diagnosis (almost like she …
I am a 20 year old male student. I am sure my DP has arisen from the use of the drug ecstasy. I have had various other symptoms since the night I took the "E", but the DP is the worst and has persisted the most.  About 5 months ago, I took one ecstasy tablet with some friends. I had no adverse reaction that night, apart …
Although I now feel almost completely normal again, I believe that I recently had a depersonalization episode that lasted for about a month. Being in that condition was more or less the most difficult part of my life so my heart goes out to anyone that suffers from depersonalization on a daily basis. It seems to me that earlier this summer an abundance of factors …

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