I walk feeling alone in the world. Everyone is here but at the same time they're not. I feel empty. Is anything what it appears? Am I the only one here? Am I the only on that sees? Where is everyone's eyes? Why don't they see what I see? Did they close their eyes to the place I see and feel? I feel completely hollow. I feel as unreal …
“I’m scared of myself, I’m scared of people, I’m scared of the world I live in and the life I’m leading. These thoughts hide behind fake laughs, awkward movements and sunken eyes, they consume me. I feel their intensity as I stare at this blank page. Every movement of my pen is the result of a forceful nudge from some trapped version of me, to …
I'm really pleased that I have found a site where people can submit their stories re: depersonalization. I don't mind using my real name and would be pleased to receive Emails. I am 53 yrs old and have been depersonalized since I was 19 yrs old.  I think the cause of it began when I was 12.  I was due to attend a new school, was …
Hi, my name is Alex, I’m 28 and this is my experience with DP. About 18 months ago while at work something changed inside my brain. It was instantaneous, I looked around and everything seemed different, like nothing was real, like I was in a dream or a movie or under the influence of drugs, an unbelievably hot rush of fear swept through my body …
I haven't had any episodes or feeling of DP for a very, very long time! Later in my letter I'll explain how and why I found this site. (How would one who's not having symptoms end up here?)Some think it's important to note that I had a very harsh childhood. I have yet to meet and talk with a person who has had as traumatic …
Amazing thing the internet, one day I'm trapped in my own private hell thinking I was the only one on earth with this horrendous condition, now by some miracle I find this site. I have been suffering from chronic depersonalization for the past 5 years and I can only say that I don't think there is a more miserable, crushing feeling in the world. It …
I was the sixth child.  My brother was born 18 years earlier and two boys and two girls died in infancy before I was born.  My mother did not want another child because she could not bear another loss.  Nonetheless I was conceived and in spite of her efforts to abort, was born healthy.  She hovered over me.  In fact one psychiatrist said it was smother …
I'm really pleased that I have found a site where people can submit their stories re: depersonalization. I don't mind using my real name and would be pleased to receive Emails. I am 53 yrs old and have been depersonalized since I was 19 yrs old.  I think the cause of it began when I was 12.  I was due to attend a new school, was …
Has anybody ever thought they were "forgetting" their family? I too suffer from DP/DR. This is one symptom I have never been able to find any additional information about.  The depression & depersonalization started when my Mom became ill / passed away, and it has consistently got worse. I'm 39, I never moved away from home, never  had a "real" job (a complicated issue) and losing …
I believe my true episodes of depersonalization/derealization disorder started when I was about 13. I know that even before that age I had had feelings that "I wasn't really there" in fact I used to tell my family that all the time and they thought I was just overreacting. Anyway, when I was 12 my parents got divorced and I honestly didn't mind, because my …
I am glad to have someone to share my experience with. I am 60 yrs old and just found out I've have de-personalization since 3 yrs old or earlier. It was always after I went to bed and I would look at my hands and know they were mine, but where was the "me" inside of me. Terror would strike. I've never been dissociated , …
I have just recently found the term for what I have been feeling persistently for the last 12yrs. I became acutely aware of the detachment one day driving home from work- I was in a rush to get home to pick up my daughter from the sitters- when I realized that I just didn't "feel there". I have lived with that unreal feeling ever since. …

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